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[07 Mar 2005|09:38pm] |
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Im so sick of high school...the immaturity and the drama..its all so stupid and pointless when you think about it..but i know im gonna miss high school as soon as i graduate...its weird how that works.
And like heather said on her LJ, these next couple of months is stress hell. Softball, AP exams, SAT's, ACT's, prom, umpiring, school, and actually having time to freakin sleep! It seems like i never have time to just sit and relax anymore.
my grandparents are coming from Iowa tomorrow for a whole week..and i have to give them my car for a couple of days..and my mom says i have to stay home and spend time with them..whatever.
softball game tomorrow at vintage..wish us luck! we are undefeated so far..maybe bcuz we have only played one game lol.
i dont know what im doing anymore..i just know that i liked it and it felt right..i guess thats all that matters.
Goodnight all <3
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[03 Mar 2005|09:42pm] |
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So this just may have been the worst week i have had in a long time...tell me why things always seem to go wrong all at once?
Im so tired..yet i hate going to bed at night. Thats where i start to think and let things get to me.
i want somebody who will be there to hold me and tell me everything will be okay.
</3
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[27 Feb 2005|08:40pm] |
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Im lazy like everyone else and dont write in this anymore...so i thought i would update.
Last night was great...heather, alissa, laura, kym and i went to eat at chilis! Great girls night out :) Then went to indoor and stayed in the parking lot like an hour after laughing at the stupidest stuff lol. And I didnt feel like driving home so heather got to chauffeur me :)
Today was not such a great day. Had a softball meeting for my summer team and was basically given a choice to either play in tournaments pretty much every weekend or not be on the team. So it looks like my summer will be full of softball again. Not only that but I procrastinated and let my hw pile up over the last couple of weeks and now im waaay behind so i spent about 7 hours today catching up. And im still not finished.
Im sooo tired...today has just been one big headache. I think I just need to go to sleep. See you all tomorrow <3
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[15 Feb 2005|10:19pm] |
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Havent written in a while...just been having way too much fun!
Valentines day was great...mostly becasue i actually had a valentine this year. it was nice to come to school and find balloons, a rose, and a teddy bear waiting for me in my locker. thanks you baby! :) even thought my balloons got stolen!! lol
Softball has started and even though we are probaably gonna suck this year, im still having fun. i love my softball girls!! Our first scrimmage is saturday at vanden, i expect to see everyone there if its not raining!!
and even though ive been out having fun with my friends, it still bugs me how my parents make decisions w/o me. they decided that im playing in a tournament in las vegas the weekend we get outta school and i have to leave late friday night to be there to play on saturday morning. they booked the flight before they even told me, thats total bullshit.
anyways, common planning tomorrow which means breakfast at bakers square! see u all there! <3
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[31 Jan 2005|04:46pm] |
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Things are so screwed up right now. Its one thing for my parents just not to tell me stuff, but its another when they lie to me about things that are gonna affect me and my life and i have to find out from somebody else. Am I wrong here, or should I get a say in the decisions that are gonna affect me?
I never thought I would say this, but I actually want to go to school soemtimes. At least there I can be myself and make my own decisions. I know its sad, but I hate coming home now and find excuses just to stay away from here.
Okay wow, I just did a whole lot of bitching and I'm done now. I'm just gonna try and let it go. School wasnt bad today and we got outta softball early and tomorrow we finally start tryouts!
yeah well thats all. see ya tomorrow <3
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[30 Jan 2005|08:36pm] |
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Today was fun. Went to the mall with Alissa and Laura but i didnt get anything. We went to ryan millers work for some food after and then to lauras and made a cool new cd for us! yess i love it :) finally a new cd for my car. lol
And now im back home and wanting to leave because my parents like wont leave me alone. They are constantly bugging me about everthing lately...grades and softball mostly. nothing i can do will ever be enough to please them. sometimes it just gets to be too much pressure on me. Im a teenager, im supposed to go out and have fun. ugh...i dont even wanna think about it anymore.
I missed you this weekend <3
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[27 Jan 2005|10:43pm] |
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He finally did it...and I've been smiling ever since :)
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[26 Jan 2005|08:22pm] |
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Something I heard today that is so totally true: Life is too short to spend worrying about the little things, just go out and have fun and make the most of the life you are given.
And thats what I plan on doing. I'm tired of having my opinion ignored, and I think I finally got through to my parents that I dont want softball take over my life. They actually listened to me for once.
My legs are super sore from conditioning! Only three more days of it though, and then we actually get to touch the ball.
Are you ever going to just do it?? Im not very good at waiting...
<3
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[24 Jan 2005|05:03pm] |
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I'm so fucking pissed off. Some fucking asshole scraped the side of my car in the school parking lot while I was at softball and scratched my right bumper. They took the paint off and everything and my parents arent gonna pay to fix it and I cant get the insurance to fix it because I dont know who fucking did it. Fuck. I hate Mondays.
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[23 Jan 2005|05:34pm] |
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Great weekend once again!! Last night went to Heather's bday party at Jordan's house and hung out there for a while. Then Alissa and I went and visited Heather at her house and just chilled there :) Today, went with Heather and Brooke to a Jamaican restaurant (even though im picky and didnt even eat anything lol) and then to like a whole bunch of different stores trying to find them stuff for spirit week.
Parents are so freakin annoying. Cant you just leave me alone for like one day without bringing up the same stuff and having the same arguements.
I cant stop thinking about you. I know I have said this before, but I should stop listening to what people say, because I always end up getting my hopes up. I just dont get it.
Now Im off to do my homework <3
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